Thursday, January 5, 2012

Parents

"There are just some things you should never include include other people in, no matter who they are."

I posted the above quote as my status on facebook earlier today. I don't know if it's an original quote or not, but it has a lot of truth for me right now.
Gareth is coming on Saturday for a visit. He'll be here for a whole two weeks. Ordinarily, I would have followed up such a statement with a million exclamation points. However, I'm really not excited about him coming anymore. There are two people who are responsible for me feeling this way: his parents.
I guess before I go to much further, I should start this story as all other stories start: at the beginning.
Gareth and I have talked about getting engaged for a while now. We had decided on a nice, big wedding in 2014 at Harlaxton Manor. It was going to be absolutely gorgeous. While we still have that dream (or something similar anyway), we made one little change. We decided that the best way to save money would be to go ahead and get married while he's here in January.
There are lots of reasons why we decided this. We love each. We're going to get married anyway. We just want to be a normal couple and do normal couple things. My life wouldn't be on hold anymore while we are in this relationship. It would have been a wonderful thing to become his wife. In fact, I was really looking forward to it.
Gareth originally wasn't going to say anything to his parents about getting married. However, I looked at it from the point of view that if I had a child and he/she got married and didn't tell me, I would be hurt. I pushed and I pushed him to tell his parents. He kept asking me if I was sure I wanted him to tell them, and I kept saying yes. So, he told them. Instead of being supportive like I thought they would be, they were the complete opposite. Neither one said congratulations or we're happy for you. His mom told him that he had to tell his dad. Then when he did tell his dad, his dad went on and on about getting a prenup and all this other stuff. Gareth just sat there and listened. He didn't say one word to his dad about what his dad was saying.
We were on Skype together when he told his parents. When he told me what his parents said, I was absolutely heart broken. I just couldn't believe that they weren't immediately supportive of their son. It made me feel like I was some girl Gareth could buy with his money or something. Really. I started crying because I was so hurt they though of me as not being good enough for their soon.
So now, I'm not going to become his Mrs in January. I know it's only 6 months difference, but I was so looking forward to being his wife, to starting our lives together. Now, his parents have ripped that away from me, and I don't know what to do. I feel like my life instead of being on pause is on stop. Everything just hurts, and I don't even know if I want to be with Gareth anymore; not when he can't even defend our relationship to his parents.

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