I HATE THIS SO MUCH!!!!!!!

So this past week was the first week of classes for my first senior year of college. It was pretty typical. I woke up with enough time to get ready and was actually kind of excited because it's the first week of my first senior year. Who wouldn't be excited to say that they are almost done with school? Everything was going well. I worked so hopefully I'll get some money soon. I had already talked to financial aid and had gotten that worked out so that my classes can actually get paid for this semester. I knew this semester would be busy what with me taking 17 hours of classwork, working 18 hours at the front desk, and just trying to be me. So many things happened that I hadn't foreseen.
Let's start with number 1:
1) My friend Sean got married. Ordinarily, this would be something to celebrate. Don't get me wrong. I'm happy for him if he married the girl for the right reasons. I don't think he did though. I think that he married the girl because she was pregnant with his baby. Not only do I not think that they got married for the reasons, but he didn't tell me. I probably would've handled this whole situation better if he had at least told me that he was getting married. The way I found out was total rubbish. I was on Facebook and suddenly there was an announcement on the news feed saying, "Sean was tagged in an album." The name of the album being Sean and Amber's Wedding. I could hardly believe my eyes! I had just talked to him a few days before on the phone, and he hadn't said anything about being engaged or that their wedding was coming up. It was kinda hard to accept, especially with me being at work. Luckily, I have amazing real friends that saying me so upset and so offered to build a fire (in a grill on campus). We smores, and I felt a little better after that. It still kinda hurts even now because he still hasn't told me. I haven't said anything to him either though. I honestly don't know what I would say to him. I mean, what do you say to someone who obviously doesn't want you to know something? I can't just go up to him and be like, "So I heard you got married. Why didn't you tell me?" How lame would that be?
2) The other thing that really upset me this week has to do with a sorority that I am currently in the process of dropping. I don't want to be there anymore for many reasons, and I really don't want to get into that right now because that's been a sore spot for MANY months now. Tonight there was a banquet celebrating the end of the colonization process for a fraternity on campus. Ever since they first started colonizing, I have been a big supporter of everything that they have done. I've even helped them out at some of the fundraisers. I had talked to one of the guys, and he told me that I had to be there so I planned to be there. Well at some point, one of my "sisters" had talked to the president of the fraternity, and he had told her that I was going. The conversation started innocently enough with her basically telling me that I was not supposed to go at all. We got into an argument over texting, and I just decided that I wasn't going to go. It really wasn't worth it if there was going to be any drama. I try to stay out of drama, but apparently, drama really like me. It's just crap because I had been looking forward to going since last semester when they first told me about it. Whatever. I'm at work now so I can't go anyway. Let them be Greek and happy. I'll be a GDI for all I care. At this point, I don't care for the Greek system. Blah.

These two things are really the only things to get me upset. I'm ready for bed, but unfortunately I'm at work until midnight. It's only 20 till 9pm. I never said my thoughts or feeling were rational. I'm just glad for a place to write all this. What are your thoughts on this?

Days until my birthday: 15

1 Year Anniversary

So tomorrow marks the one year anniversary of me being at Harlaxton. I can hardly believe that it has been a year since I've been in England. I miss it so much! Some days are easier than others, but I will never forget about all my friends and the amazing times that we had. Sometimes it seems so unreal that I was ever real. Sometimes the only way I remember is when I look around my room and see things that I bought or pictures that I took or talk to either Mary or Maytha. Sometimes, I only remember because someone else brings it up. Harlaxton will always be in my heart. It's hard to believe that I have all these memories that I shared with very few people, but that I could never really forget. I have been very fortunate to have the experiences that I've had. Not many people get to study abroad or even just to go abroad for any amount of time. I've gotten to study abroad and am now considering getting my master's degree in London. How amazing would that be? I've even been just watching some people on Youtube that live in England, and I remember being there. I remember how happy I was despite the cold. I really wish I could go back. Everything seemed so much simpler there. I miss it.

Yes Another One Today

Yes, I'm doing another one today because I've been doing a horrible job at keeping y'all up to date on what I'm doing. Like I've been telling everybody, school is school. Not too much is different when you have to wake up at 7am just to make it to class on time. The classes I'm taking are British Studies, Schools and Society, Children's Literature, and Learning Theory. Sounds fun, right? Not really. My favorite class is definitely Schools and Society. It's funny, but I don't think I've ever been in a class where I was the only minority, but here I am. I never thought it would happen. I've made a few friends, but I miss all of y'all back home. I'll see you guys in just a little while. My friends and I go out every week so imagine how much money we spend :) We have tons of fun. People here are really cool (both American and English). I want to stay longer. I might even be willing to go through another semester of British Studies just to stay. I love England! I definitely want to come back. I'm thinking of coming back every year once I graduate. Harlaxton Manor is amazing! The Gate House will even be finished soon. I can rent that out for a month. It would be such an opportunity!
I've been to Edinburgh, Scotland and London, England. I went to Nottingham and didn't see Robin Hood. Instead, we went to Primark which is a great store! Everything there is so cheap and cut. In Scotland, I lost and found my wallet. London did nothing but rain almost the entire time. It doesn't rain nearly as much as everybody thinks. It's not super cold yet. I really only need a jacket sometimes so far. There are days where it's warm enough not to have to wear one. Everything here is so amazing and beautiful. I am very lucky to be here and to have met such wonderful people. I highly recommend everybody to do a semester abroad. Or just to live abroad for a while. I'm starting to consider some new career options that I had never thought about before. It's so amazing! Oh just before anybody asks, no I haven't run the Naked Mile yet :)

Why English Boys are Better than American Boys

Ok. Yes, it's true. In some aspects, English boys are better than American boys. Sorry guys, but you could definitely learn a few tips (well, most of you). The English boys that I've met (and mostly remember) are so sweet! They actually hold doors open for you. They hold your hand to guide you to wherever it is you're going. They buy you drinks and actually get them for you. Some pay for you to get into clubs. The most amazing part: you don't feel like you owe them anything for their kindness. Some American boys that I know make it seem as if you owe them something if they buy you a few drinks, but not English boys. You actually get to control what goes on. English guys still have a sense of chivalry that has been lost on American boys. I've only ever met a couple of American boys that are as nice as the English boys I've met. Even if you do go home with them, they don't try to convince you to do anymore than you want to (not that I would know from personal experience...). One of my friends has met one and is kind of seeing him, but he is so sweet. Not just to her either. He has so much respect for her that he actually cares about her friends too. I simply stated that I was cold and he pulled me into a big bear hug to warm up. It was so funny! Times at Harlaxton are fun even if some details are fuzzy.

Tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey guys! So I leave tomorrow for my semester abroad in England!!! What could be more exciting than that? I'm going to miss everybody though. For those who came to my little get together, thank you. I really appreciate it, especially those who drove down from Denton. Y'all are probably never going to do that again. I completely understand. I loved it. I had tons of fun, and I hope y'all did too. I'm going to miss all of you. Make sure to keep in touch, one way or another. I have my address for when I'll be there. I'll look it up later and then post it here, Myspace, and Facebook. Be sure to keep a look out for that. Also, one of the other girls from my school and I are going to attempt to do a web show on Youtube so keep an eye out for that too. Ok. I think that's it. I love you guys!!!

20 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!! I can hardly believe that there are only 20 more days until I leave for Harlaxton!!! OMG!!! Sorry. I'm just so excited!!! I still have to find a black dress. I have the best sister though. She has the biggest closet I have ever seen, and I got to go shopping in it yesterday. I got a lot of cute clothes from that. The only thing I have to still get is a little black dress. Oh yeah. I also got new luggage. The purple luggage wasn't big enough :( Oh well. What can I do about that? So the new luggage is a lot bigger. I tried to find a picture to show, but I couldn't. I'll keep looking later, though. Ok. I don't know what else to say. I love you guys!!!