I remember when I was a little girl that I wanted to be a "grown-up." This wish got stronger as I became a teenager and thought I knew everything. Now that I am kind of an unofficial adult, I see that it's silly to want to hurry up and grow up.
I got in a really bad car accident this past weekend. My car was completely totaled. Now, I not only have to think about a getting a new car, I have to think about car insurance. Not only that, but I have to think about how I'm going to pay for the car and the insurance. I have to get a job that will actually pay me money so that I can keep my car. These are only small things compared to some people. Some people my age have been paying for these things for much longer. It's all new for me though. I just have to persevere and it'll work out. Eventually.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
365 Days in 20 Ways
365 Days in 20 Ways. You may be wondering what exactly this is. I got the idea from Myles Dyer (blade376 on youtube). It's a list of goals that you want to complete within a year. I'm typing this up a little bit late, but I'm hoping to accomplish the following things by 2 July 2011. For a full explanation of what this "365 Days in 20 Ways" is, click on this link --> Blade376
1. Go to England
I have already spent a semester abroad in England, and I have always wanted to go back. My friend Jennifer (who I actually met when I studied abroad) is moving there to live with her boyfriend. I'm planning on staying a week with her. It should be fun. My ticket is already booked. I just have to go. This one should be accomplished within a two months.
2. Graduate from college.
I have been in college for four years now. I was hoping to be out already, but that didn't happen. I'm hoping that five will be my lucky number, and I will graduate in May 2011. Hopefully, this one will just make the July 2nd deadline at the latest.
3. Save $1,000.
As a person getting ready to take on more adult responsibilities, having a little bit of extra money would be helpful. As of right now, I don't know where I'm going so this is something I will probably need.
4. Go to a state that I've never been to (not New York).
You have already been able to guess this, but I LOVE to travel. I like going to new places and meeting new people. This is something I really want to do.
5. See Mary and Maytha again.
Mary and Maytha are my BEST friends in the whole world, and I haven't see them since I left Harlaxton. Getting to see them again would be the best thing EVER! We are already making plans to meet up sometime. This is in the works but not definite yet. :(
6. Go to New York.
Although I could have easily lumped this into number 4, I chose not. It seemed too easy to do that (even though I've never been) since I have always admired New York for what it stands for to me. Going to another state and going to my dream are two different things, and therefore, two separate goals.
7. Get hired as a teacher.
I have wanted to be a teacher since the fifth grade. If everything works out the way it should, I will graduate in May with my teaching certificate, and I will begin teaching somewhere in August. This will probably be the hardest, but that just makes it more worthwhile.
8. Post a video on YouTube.
I know this one sounds lame, but it's something I've been wanting to do. I've never done, and I admire many people who do. I want to do it for me, not anything else.
9. Make a new friend.
This past year, I have learned a lot about real friends. I learned that I have two real friends: Mary and Maytha. Getting another real friend would be awesome. If it happens, it happens. If not, at least I have Mary and Maytha.
10. BEDA (August or April)
You might remember that I attempted BEDA in April. Since it didn't work out quite the way I wanted, I'm going to try again.
11. Find a boyfriend.
I have always been in love with the idea of being in love. Now that I'm 22 and about to strike into the world, I want to be able to do that with someone I love.
12. Register/go to VidCon.
I was unable to go to VidCon this year, but I really wanted to go. If it's held next, I'm going to try my best to go.
13. Buy Doctor Who on DVD.
I don't know if I ever mentioned that Doctor Who is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE SHOW EVER, but it is :) Nothing would make me happier than if I actually owned.
14. Meet someone I admire.
There are many people in the world that I admire. To be able to meet one would be great. I was planning on being able to meet Kristina Horner (italktosnakes) and Luke Conard (lukeconard) on July 11th, but my accident stopped that. Hopefully, another time.
15. Treat myself to something expensive (like diamonds, Coach bag, etc).
After being a college student for so long, I feel like I should be able to treat myself to something nice. This is how I want to treat myself after working hard for so long.
16. Organize an event for people.
This one is really vague, I know. At the time, I couldn't think of another goal so I just wrote something down. This goal was the result. I just wanted to write something down. We'll see how this one goes down.
17. Volunteer at the animal shelter.
Before I wanted to be a teacher, I wanted to be a veterinarian. Animals have always been a big part of my life. I want to give back to the community, and I couldn't think of a better way for me to do this.
18. Learn to play guitar.
Music is a big part of my life too. I tried to learn how to play guitar last y ear, but it didn't quite work out the way I wanted it to. I' going to try again this year.
19. Work on English accent.
Being an Anglophile is something I am proud to call myself. My English accent needs to be improved upon. That's it. I just want a better accent. Simple.
20. Read and study the Bible.
This is a task I've tried to take on a million times. I'm hoping to be able to actually do it this time. I'm going to start with Psalms. Everything has been leading me there.
There are my goals. I will keep you updated throughout the year. If you are interested in doing the same, I would love for you to join me, Myles, and everyone else doing it. Just make a list and do it. Good luck!
1. Go to England
I have already spent a semester abroad in England, and I have always wanted to go back. My friend Jennifer (who I actually met when I studied abroad) is moving there to live with her boyfriend. I'm planning on staying a week with her. It should be fun. My ticket is already booked. I just have to go. This one should be accomplished within a two months.
2. Graduate from college.
I have been in college for four years now. I was hoping to be out already, but that didn't happen. I'm hoping that five will be my lucky number, and I will graduate in May 2011. Hopefully, this one will just make the July 2nd deadline at the latest.
3. Save $1,000.
As a person getting ready to take on more adult responsibilities, having a little bit of extra money would be helpful. As of right now, I don't know where I'm going so this is something I will probably need.
4. Go to a state that I've never been to (not New York).
You have already been able to guess this, but I LOVE to travel. I like going to new places and meeting new people. This is something I really want to do.
5. See Mary and Maytha again.
Mary and Maytha are my BEST friends in the whole world, and I haven't see them since I left Harlaxton. Getting to see them again would be the best thing EVER! We are already making plans to meet up sometime. This is in the works but not definite yet. :(
6. Go to New York.
Although I could have easily lumped this into number 4, I chose not. It seemed too easy to do that (even though I've never been) since I have always admired New York for what it stands for to me. Going to another state and going to my dream are two different things, and therefore, two separate goals.
7. Get hired as a teacher.
I have wanted to be a teacher since the fifth grade. If everything works out the way it should, I will graduate in May with my teaching certificate, and I will begin teaching somewhere in August. This will probably be the hardest, but that just makes it more worthwhile.
8. Post a video on YouTube.
I know this one sounds lame, but it's something I've been wanting to do. I've never done, and I admire many people who do. I want to do it for me, not anything else.
9. Make a new friend.
This past year, I have learned a lot about real friends. I learned that I have two real friends: Mary and Maytha. Getting another real friend would be awesome. If it happens, it happens. If not, at least I have Mary and Maytha.
10. BEDA (August or April)
You might remember that I attempted BEDA in April. Since it didn't work out quite the way I wanted, I'm going to try again.
11. Find a boyfriend.
I have always been in love with the idea of being in love. Now that I'm 22 and about to strike into the world, I want to be able to do that with someone I love.
12. Register/go to VidCon.
I was unable to go to VidCon this year, but I really wanted to go. If it's held next, I'm going to try my best to go.
13. Buy Doctor Who on DVD.
I don't know if I ever mentioned that Doctor Who is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE SHOW EVER, but it is :) Nothing would make me happier than if I actually owned.
14. Meet someone I admire.
There are many people in the world that I admire. To be able to meet one would be great. I was planning on being able to meet Kristina Horner (italktosnakes) and Luke Conard (lukeconard) on July 11th, but my accident stopped that. Hopefully, another time.
15. Treat myself to something expensive (like diamonds, Coach bag, etc).
After being a college student for so long, I feel like I should be able to treat myself to something nice. This is how I want to treat myself after working hard for so long.
16. Organize an event for people.
This one is really vague, I know. At the time, I couldn't think of another goal so I just wrote something down. This goal was the result. I just wanted to write something down. We'll see how this one goes down.
17. Volunteer at the animal shelter.
Before I wanted to be a teacher, I wanted to be a veterinarian. Animals have always been a big part of my life. I want to give back to the community, and I couldn't think of a better way for me to do this.
18. Learn to play guitar.
Music is a big part of my life too. I tried to learn how to play guitar last y ear, but it didn't quite work out the way I wanted it to. I' going to try again this year.
19. Work on English accent.
Being an Anglophile is something I am proud to call myself. My English accent needs to be improved upon. That's it. I just want a better accent. Simple.
20. Read and study the Bible.
This is a task I've tried to take on a million times. I'm hoping to be able to actually do it this time. I'm going to start with Psalms. Everything has been leading me there.
There are my goals. I will keep you updated throughout the year. If you are interested in doing the same, I would love for you to join me, Myles, and everyone else doing it. Just make a list and do it. Good luck!
Friday, June 25, 2010
Tests vs. Homework
I totally understand the point of tests and homework. I even get how they both help students to learn. What I want to know though is, which is worse? Would you rather do homework or take tests? Homework is supposed to be used as a test prep of sorts. It gauges how much you know and what you still need to learn. Which is what tests do too, only in a more formal way most of the time. Both are an easy way for teachers to see how much students have learned and what they need to go back and cover. As a current student and future teacher, I understand why both tests and homework are important. However, now my student side is being rebellious. No matter how much my teacher side is telling me that it's important to study to be well prepared for my teacher test tomorrow, my student side is telling me it's summer. That's supposed to mean no tests and as a result no studying. My student side wants me to do well, but it doesn't want to have to work for it. My student side is currently winning which is why I'm writing this. No matter how much I study, I will only know what I already know tomorrow when I take the test. I want to be prepared, but I really hate taking tests. At least with homework, you can get your parents to help. It's also pretty much done on your time so there's no need to rush. I think homework wins this battle, for me. What do you think?
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I Don't Know What to Do
Ok. I was thinking about Sean a lot yesterday. I even looked at his wedding pictures, blah blah blah, etc etc etc. Now, I get on facebook and he's invited me to go to his baby shower/diaper party/paint our baby's room! thing. I really just don't know what to do. Should I go? Should I not go? Should I say I have to work and that we'll have to hang out another time? My mind was blown from Doctor Who, but this has my mind in a knot. I'll probably ask Mary for advice. I don't see how Sean could even want me there considering I haven't talked to him since May, no April, maybe March? I really don't remember. I need to pray about it.
Jealousy
There are many times when I stop and look around, and I wonder. Yes, I wonder many times about what it is that I'm doing with my life. My friends all seem to be able to find love. I have found what I thought was love, only to let him slip through my fingers. I have friends who have graduated college. They're now getting married. I have friends with kids already. Yet, I'm here just hoping to graduate in May. My life is not what I expected it to be at this point in my life. I remember being at Harlaxton just a year and a half ago and new couples forming. Now, they're getting married. I sit around and see all the love that there is, and I'm jealous. I know it's wrong to be jealous, but I just want someone to love. Even the flightiest of my friends has a boyfriend. My friend who really should be waiting for the guy to make a grand gesture (not the grand gesture) is back with him. Some of the crappiest people I know have someone to love. I want someone to live for. A person that I can look at and know that he will always be there. I'm 22 years old. I would've thought that I would have found someone at least once that would hold me when I cried. Just one person, but I've never had that. Is it wrong? I don't want to be a crazy old lady who has no one. I want a family one day. I want a husband and some kids. I want to be the stay at home mom who has dinner on the table. As 1950s as that sounds, that is truly the deepest desire of my heart. I try not to show it because it just makes me wistful and want it even more. There are times when I wonder why I'm even here. If I can't even find one person who wants me for more than just sex, why am I here? Why do I want to find someone to spend the rest of my life with? It doesn't seem fair that I should be the one who doesn't get any love when I want it more than anyone else I know. I know I should just be content with my lot. I know that God has a plan for me. I just wish I knew what it was so that I could at least prepare myself for being single for the rest of my life if that is His plan. I really, really hope it isn't, though. I really hope it isn't.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
The Pandorica Opens
I have officially watched "The Pandorica Opens" three times. This is the newest episode of the Doctor Who series. I still don't really know what to say about it other than that my mind was blown. I could hardly believe it when I saw the cliffhanger. I don't want to give away spoilers so I'm not going to say much. I just wanted to write a little something about it. Let me just say this, I am no closer to figuring out how they (Doctor, Amy, and River) are going to get out of this predicament than I was the first time I saw it. This week is going to be torture until I get to watch the new one. I can't wait for "The Big Bang."
*Don't forget that it airs on Saturday on BBC1.
*Don't forget that it airs on Saturday on BBC1.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Doctor Who
I have always loved Doctor Who. I haven't seen any of the Classic Who series, but I have seen every episode of Nu Who. I have watched Christopher Eccleston help to cure gas mask people back into real people. I have seen David Tennant save the Ood from what seems to be a devil-type creature. Now, I have just seen Matt Smith fight an invisible monster with Vincent Van Gogh.
In this week's episode of Doctor Who, Matt Smith and Karen Gillan (Amy Pond) go back in time after seeing a face of an evil monster in one of Van Gogh's paintings. The Doctor even says, "That's an evil face. I know evil when I see it." It was interesting to see the parallels between the Doctor and Van Gogh and also between the Doctor and the monster. The Doctor is blind it seems to many of the nuances of the world. He is starting to admit that he is too old which sad. The Doctor as fans know is little over 900 years old. He is forgetting what used to be important. Although it is interesting to see that he is starting to adapt to using practices that he did not use very often before. From what I have seen in the new series started by RTD, the Doctor tends to do more action than talking to the aliens. In this episode, though, the Doctor talked to the monster. He tried to help keep the animal calm so that it wouldn't hurt anyone. It almost seemed to work too. It's too bad that the Doctor always seemed to rely on his sonic screwdriver to help get him out of a mess. This week, though, it was not the sonic screwdriver that saves the day. It was Van Gogh.
Vincent and the Doctor is probably my favorite episode so far. There was so much emotion in it. Vincent seemed to be the smartest and bravest in this episode. He fought the monster and made sure that Amy and the Doctor were safe. The emotion was just obvious throughout the entire episode. You could feel the love between all three of the main characters. It was beautiful.
In this week's episode of Doctor Who, Matt Smith and Karen Gillan (Amy Pond) go back in time after seeing a face of an evil monster in one of Van Gogh's paintings. The Doctor even says, "That's an evil face. I know evil when I see it." It was interesting to see the parallels between the Doctor and Van Gogh and also between the Doctor and the monster. The Doctor is blind it seems to many of the nuances of the world. He is starting to admit that he is too old which sad. The Doctor as fans know is little over 900 years old. He is forgetting what used to be important. Although it is interesting to see that he is starting to adapt to using practices that he did not use very often before. From what I have seen in the new series started by RTD, the Doctor tends to do more action than talking to the aliens. In this episode, though, the Doctor talked to the monster. He tried to help keep the animal calm so that it wouldn't hurt anyone. It almost seemed to work too. It's too bad that the Doctor always seemed to rely on his sonic screwdriver to help get him out of a mess. This week, though, it was not the sonic screwdriver that saves the day. It was Van Gogh.
Vincent and the Doctor is probably my favorite episode so far. There was so much emotion in it. Vincent seemed to be the smartest and bravest in this episode. He fought the monster and made sure that Amy and the Doctor were safe. The emotion was just obvious throughout the entire episode. You could feel the love between all three of the main characters. It was beautiful.
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