Yes Another One Today

Yes, I'm doing another one today because I've been doing a horrible job at keeping y'all up to date on what I'm doing. Like I've been telling everybody, school is school. Not too much is different when you have to wake up at 7am just to make it to class on time. The classes I'm taking are British Studies, Schools and Society, Children's Literature, and Learning Theory. Sounds fun, right? Not really. My favorite class is definitely Schools and Society. It's funny, but I don't think I've ever been in a class where I was the only minority, but here I am. I never thought it would happen. I've made a few friends, but I miss all of y'all back home. I'll see you guys in just a little while. My friends and I go out every week so imagine how much money we spend :) We have tons of fun. People here are really cool (both American and English). I want to stay longer. I might even be willing to go through another semester of British Studies just to stay. I love England! I definitely want to come back. I'm thinking of coming back every year once I graduate. Harlaxton Manor is amazing! The Gate House will even be finished soon. I can rent that out for a month. It would be such an opportunity!
I've been to Edinburgh, Scotland and London, England. I went to Nottingham and didn't see Robin Hood. Instead, we went to Primark which is a great store! Everything there is so cheap and cut. In Scotland, I lost and found my wallet. London did nothing but rain almost the entire time. It doesn't rain nearly as much as everybody thinks. It's not super cold yet. I really only need a jacket sometimes so far. There are days where it's warm enough not to have to wear one. Everything here is so amazing and beautiful. I am very lucky to be here and to have met such wonderful people. I highly recommend everybody to do a semester abroad. Or just to live abroad for a while. I'm starting to consider some new career options that I had never thought about before. It's so amazing! Oh just before anybody asks, no I haven't run the Naked Mile yet :)

Why English Boys are Better than American Boys

Ok. Yes, it's true. In some aspects, English boys are better than American boys. Sorry guys, but you could definitely learn a few tips (well, most of you). The English boys that I've met (and mostly remember) are so sweet! They actually hold doors open for you. They hold your hand to guide you to wherever it is you're going. They buy you drinks and actually get them for you. Some pay for you to get into clubs. The most amazing part: you don't feel like you owe them anything for their kindness. Some American boys that I know make it seem as if you owe them something if they buy you a few drinks, but not English boys. You actually get to control what goes on. English guys still have a sense of chivalry that has been lost on American boys. I've only ever met a couple of American boys that are as nice as the English boys I've met. Even if you do go home with them, they don't try to convince you to do anymore than you want to (not that I would know from personal experience...). One of my friends has met one and is kind of seeing him, but he is so sweet. Not just to her either. He has so much respect for her that he actually cares about her friends too. I simply stated that I was cold and he pulled me into a big bear hug to warm up. It was so funny! Times at Harlaxton are fun even if some details are fuzzy.

Tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey guys! So I leave tomorrow for my semester abroad in England!!! What could be more exciting than that? I'm going to miss everybody though. For those who came to my little get together, thank you. I really appreciate it, especially those who drove down from Denton. Y'all are probably never going to do that again. I completely understand. I loved it. I had tons of fun, and I hope y'all did too. I'm going to miss all of you. Make sure to keep in touch, one way or another. I have my address for when I'll be there. I'll look it up later and then post it here, Myspace, and Facebook. Be sure to keep a look out for that. Also, one of the other girls from my school and I are going to attempt to do a web show on Youtube so keep an eye out for that too. Ok. I think that's it. I love you guys!!!

20 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!! I can hardly believe that there are only 20 more days until I leave for Harlaxton!!! OMG!!! Sorry. I'm just so excited!!! I still have to find a black dress. I have the best sister though. She has the biggest closet I have ever seen, and I got to go shopping in it yesterday. I got a lot of cute clothes from that. The only thing I have to still get is a little black dress. Oh yeah. I also got new luggage. The purple luggage wasn't big enough :( Oh well. What can I do about that? So the new luggage is a lot bigger. I tried to find a picture to show, but I couldn't. I'll keep looking later, though. Ok. I don't know what else to say. I love you guys!!!

Flowers

I made these just now at www.mylifetime.com! Yay flowers!

A Little Better...and Only 41 More Days!!!

So...things have gotten better since the last post. I ended up getting that scholarship! That was super exciting. I even did the high pitched squeal thing. What can I say? I was that excited. I wish the guy I like didn't have the girlfriend and was in love with me, but there's nothing I can do about that so I'm not even going to waste my time there. Other than that, only 41 more days until I leave for England. I couldn't be more excited about that. It's what I've wanted for a long time. Now I'm finally getting it. What could be more exciting? I'm gonna miss my family and friends, sure, but you gotta get on with your life. I gotta do things that I want for me. I can't do them for anyone else. I just gotta remember that sometimes.
Another thing that was exciting is that I got my luggage.

That's what it looks like. I know it's looks really purple. Don't worry. It is. Whatever. I like it. 41 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love you guys!!!

Sucks...sucks...sucks

So this weekend has pretty much sucked. I didn't get a scholarship that I desperately need so that I can go to England, found out that the guy I like has a girlfriend, and everybody I want to talk to doesn't answer their phone. Oh well. Things will get better. That's what I keep telling myself. Eventually, I will get the money I need, found a guy who truly loves me for me, and someone will call me back. I'm being optimistic in this weekend full of crap. The worst part of this whole weekend is that it's not even over yet. Maybe I'll get one of the jobs I apply for. I can't work at the accounting office anymore. I'll only work twice a week, and I haven't worked for the past two weeks. I need to make money. Otherwise, I really won't be able to pay for England. I'll get what I need, though. I'll have to do whatever I can to get the money I need. I should probably get off of here and go on fastweb. I need to apply for as many scholarships as possible since I didn't get that one. I love you guys!!!

The First Letter

Hey everybody! So guess what!!! Navy boy wrote me! It wasn't a long letter, but he wrote me! I'm super excited about it! He didn't say a lot, but at least he wrote. Like it was seriously only a paragraph. Luckily, I grew up with the military so I know during boot camp, the guys don't get a lot of time to write. Wow! Could you imagine if this was during like the 1950s or something, and writing letters was the only way to like communicate? Sometimes it's hard to believe how much we've progressed as a society. Sorry. Getting off topic. Now I'm trying to figure out what to write back to him. This was so much easier when I was six and writing my dad. The teachers would pull me out of class and tell me what to write. Where are those teachers now? Or were they counselors? I don't remember. That was like 14 years ago. Goodness! Now I feel old. Off topic again. Eventually I'll findout what to write him about. I knew he wants to hear from me and soon. He said that in his letter. Well, he said that he hopes to hear from me soon. It's the same thing. I'll have a lot of time next week for sure to write him. I gotta go now though. I have a lot of homework to do. It's due tomorrow. It's quite sad. I have a 5 page paper to write ad a lab to do for my LS class. Talk to y'all soon. Love ya!!!

He's Gone

Ok, guys. Navy boy is gone. I miss him a lot, but what can I do? I know he doesn't want me to be sad. I know this, and yet, I wallow in the fact that he's gone. I'm so happy for him because he's following his dream. I mean, who doesn't want their friends to be successful? I'm always so proud of anything my friends do. Navy boy sings, writes songs, and plays guitar. He even has a music page up on myspace. Yes, I added the song to my myspace. Did you guys really expect me not to? He left, on the 9th of this month. It was a sad day. He only went to Dallas, but he left. He left for basic training the next day (the 10th). Now, if my research is correct, he's in Illinois. I think it's pretty accurate though. I'll have to ask his roommate (who will be referred to as Roommate guy) where Navy boy is. (This is so confusing somtimes. I just don't want to use their real names.) Roommate guy works here at TWU so it won't be that hard. Well, I still have to take a shower before I even dare to leave the building. I just wanted to let y'all know that Navy boy did in fact already leave.

BTW, happy birthday to my sister Amanda!!! I love you!!!

Never Be Mine

Hey guys! This is a poem that I just wrote. It's my first one in like a year. I haven't really written much besides essay since then. By the way, broken hearts suck.

Never Be Mine
by: Megan Montoya

I long for your kisses
knowing they'll never mine.
Seeing you with her
eats me up inside.
But what can I do?
I'm not so sure.
All that I know is that
you'll never be mine
I guess friends is all we are
and all we'll ever be.
Nothing will change.
I guess I could cry
but that won't change the fact
that you'll never be mine.
I could lie to you
and pretend to be over you
Yet I can still feel the way
it felt to be in your arms.
I felt so safe and secure again.
A way I haven't felt
since he took his love away.
I trusted you
and I love you
but you're still with her.
She's the one with your heart,
a heart that never belonged to me.
Now it's 2 in the morning
and I'm sitting here alone
thinking things through.
Stoic is all I can be
knowing that we won't be.
You belong to her.
I guess I've finally realized
you'll never be mine.

Tell me what you guys think. I have a paper that I need to finish in about six hours so I'll talk to you guys later. I love you.

Love always,
Megan

I'll miss you

So he has been on my mind a lot lately, and I think I know why. I just don't want to say it. I really wish he wasn't leaving. I wish he could just stay here, but he's a big boy. He needs to go after his own dreams and ambitions. That's the thing I like about him the most. He has dreams and things he wants to do. I just wish they could be realized without him having to leave. Yet, he leaves April 10th. I'll only have a few days left with him when I get back to school. It just sucks all around. I want him to stay! Is that too much to ask??? I'm not saying I want him to be my boyfriend or anything, but would that be so bad? I'm not entirely ugly. Some people even consider me to be pretty. I'm not skinny, but that just means there's more of me to love. I'm smart. He makes me happy. Right now, I'm not so happy. I know it sounds stupid, but I bought him this necklace with a St. Michael and Guardian Angel medallion on it. St. Michael is the patron saint of police officers, and they both protect from harm. I know he might not be Catholic or even a Christian, but it means a lot to me. I'm feeling like I'm about to cry. I shouldn't be feeling like that. I know I shouldn't. I'm just confused. Can somebody help me out? Gotta go. I need dinner eventually.
Love always,
Megan

It's Official!!!

Hey guys! So it's official! I'm going to Harlaxton!!! I am so excited! Now, I just have to find a way to finance it. I will gladly take donations :) Just kidding. I'm applying for a ton of scholarships so hopefully I'll get most, if not all, of them. I was looking over the scholarships that I've applied for so far, and I might actually get enough to pay for it and have some left over. Wouldn't that be nice? It's so exciting! The only other things I'm worried about is paying for like airline tickets and other essentials. I'm trying to pay for Harlaxton on my own. I know it'll be hard, but it'll be totally worth it. I don't want my mom to have to put in too much. My dad on the other hand...j/k. I'm going to do as much as I can. I'm hoping my dad will pay for the tickets there and back. We'll see. He's going to give me his frequent flyer miles so that'll help, no matter what. I never realized just how expensive it is to fly to another country. I'm going to talk to a travel agent, and see if there's any way to get a cheaper flight. I've talked to a travel agent back at school and he said the cheapest out of Killeen is $1337. On my own, it's a lot more. I'm going to find out if there's any travel agents I can see while I'm still here in Cove. It might just be easier to deal with one in Denton. Shakara and I can go together. Well, I have lots of stuff to do still. I have homework and planning for Harlaxton to do still. If anyone wants to help, I'll appreciate it. Love you guys!!!
Love always,
Megan

Ok. So I can't wait to go to England. This is one of the reasons.

He is really cute, isn't he? I met him when I saw RENT last May. He is an incredible singer! I'll see if there's any way to put up a clip of him singing. Another reason is this:

Beautiful! I love it! England is so gorgeous!
Then, of course, there's always my beautiful Harlaxton.

I absolutely cannot wait to go!!! I'm going to miss everybody, but it'll be so worth it! Wait until you guys see the wonderful souvenirs that I'm going to bring back. I don't know where they're going to be from yet, but it'll be totally worth it. I love you guys so much!!!
Love always,
Megan

Ode to My Passport

Passport
Passport.
Where could you be?
You were sent off on Tuesday
and still are not here.
I need you so soon
so I can go to Harlaxton.
When will you come?
Please be here Monday.
I've waited so long
and you still are not here.
Today is Saturday,
where could you be?
I see myself in England,
maybe even Paris in France,
possibly see
where I could reign as queen.
In Spain,
my family used to rule.
Without you,
I can't see the beautiful country.
Passport, oh passport,
where could you be?
I need you on Monday.
Oh please, hurry.

YAY!!!

So I did end up getting my shot records. Unfortunately, I had to get a shot. It still hurts. It'll be worth it, though, when I'm in England. I can't wait to go! I've been talking to one of the other girls that's going. The only thing I'm waiting for now is my passport. I actually have a pretty passport picture...and the stamp pages are going to get so full!!! I'm going to travel so much when I'm there.

That's where I'm going to be living for four months. Well, possibly. There's another building on the campus where the majority of the students live. It's called the Carriage House. It's just as gorgeous.

Aren't these places beautiful? I can't believe I'm actually going to be living and staying here! It's almost like a dream. An unbelieveable dream.
Love always,
Megan

So Irritated

Ok. So I've been trying to get a hold of my shot records for the past two weeks. I'm more than a little irritated that Darnall is just now telling me that they are in St. Louis!!! I called last week, and they said that I needed to write them a letter and they would send them to me. I did that. I called today, and they told me they are in St. Louis. So now I've been trying to call everybody and their mom to get a hold of them. I'm a little irritated. I should be irritated at myself because I waited so long to do it. If I had just done it last month, I wouldn't be freaking out about it now. I just need them like tomorrow because all my stuff is due this week.
So I just talked to Annette, and she said that as long as I turn everything else in by this week, I should be ok. She said something about March 10th. Hopefully as long as I get them by then, I'll be fine. I am for real freaking out about this right now. I just want to do this so much!!! Too bad they're not offering anything for me in the Spring otherwise I would take consolation in that. I have to do it now.

Ok...I'm just bored

Ok. So I've been trying to tell myself not to write anymore, but I just can't help myself. Y'all know how much I love to write. So today, nothing much happened. I just had two classes and that was it. It was pretty cool tough. In my government class, I got to listen to Gloria Steinem speak about Hillary Clinton. She didn't really say too much. She did say one thing I really liked, "Hope is a form of planning." Don't ask me why I like it. I just do.
I had a midterm in my KINS class. It was easier then I thought it would be. There's always a few questions that'll get you. There were a couple that I really had to think about, but for the most part it was easy.
Ok. So I have homework to do. I'll get my writing in that way. Talk to you all later!!!
Love always,
Megan

Just a little information

Ok. So most of you know that I'm planning on studying abroad in the fall. I'm so excited! I've always wanted to go back to England and actually have memories of it this time around. Most of my stuff is together. Just need a few last things, like my passport and shot records. I also have to write a few essays, but y'all know that isn't too hard for me. I just have to collect my thoughts first.
So now the reason I started this blog. I've always wanted an easy way for my friends and family to get a glimpse into my life without everyone having to use myspace or facebook. Especially for some people, those things just aren't feasible. So...ta da! Blogger. I learned about it in one of my classes. It's actually pretty cool. I'm sure there are tons of features. I'll have to play around with it to discover.
Now when I go to Harlaxton College, y'all can know what I'm up to. I really am excited. I've always loved to travel, and now I get to do in another country. This time I'll have memories of having been in England. While it's true that I have memories of Germany, there just wasn't time to actually look around and enjoy those things. Everything was always so rushed. Now, I can go and create more memories of different countries. I'll come back with so much more experience. I can't wait!!!
Love always,
Megan